I did not lose all of my hair like many people I know who went through chemo, mine thinned. Many said they didn't even notice, but I did. I still do.
Can't tell you how many times I woke up over the last year to see how many hairs were on my pillow or how many hairs I counted in my hand in the shower. Blow drying my hair was torture because my hair would be on the sink, walls, floor etc..
I almost shaved my head to end the pain, but couldn't do it. I think I just wanted to postpone that as long as possible thinking it would be easier for my kids, easier for me to keep up the 'normal' act. My plan was to see if the thinning continued or was isolated to just the front, then I would bite the bullet and embrace being a bald ChemoHead.
In fact, the ChemoHead character is how I felt I looked over the last year, a self portrait to a point. I wanted the character to show all ChemoHeads, those thinning and those regrowing their hair, keeping that smile but feeling fuzzy inside your head and out.
My chemo treatments ended in March and I am still hoping to regain the hair I used to have. Actually, I was hoping it would come back thicker and a pretty auburn color (wishful thinking rather than the thin brown hair I have always had). So far, I do have some wispy hair coming in but not as quickly as I hoped and not an overwhelming amount.
Anyone else dealing with this? How long do I have to wait? Will I be one of those chemo patients who do not grow their hair back- another exception to the rule?
Can't tell you how many times I woke up over the last year to see how many hairs were on my pillow or how many hairs I counted in my hand in the shower. Blow drying my hair was torture because my hair would be on the sink, walls, floor etc..
I almost shaved my head to end the pain, but couldn't do it. I think I just wanted to postpone that as long as possible thinking it would be easier for my kids, easier for me to keep up the 'normal' act. My plan was to see if the thinning continued or was isolated to just the front, then I would bite the bullet and embrace being a bald ChemoHead.
In fact, the ChemoHead character is how I felt I looked over the last year, a self portrait to a point. I wanted the character to show all ChemoHeads, those thinning and those regrowing their hair, keeping that smile but feeling fuzzy inside your head and out.
My chemo treatments ended in March and I am still hoping to regain the hair I used to have. Actually, I was hoping it would come back thicker and a pretty auburn color (wishful thinking rather than the thin brown hair I have always had). So far, I do have some wispy hair coming in but not as quickly as I hoped and not an overwhelming amount.
Anyone else dealing with this? How long do I have to wait? Will I be one of those chemo patients who do not grow their hair back- another exception to the rule?
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